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  After a few minutes of this, Jesse withdrew his finger, making Leo moan again when Jesse also let go of his cock.

  “Hold on, Sir,” he teased. “More lube and another finger.” Yes, the fingers returned, as did the hand on his cock.

  Jesse patiently repeated the process, but this time Leo knew what was going on and sped things along, until Jesse let go of his cock and took over fucking his ass.

  “Sorry, Sir, but I don’t want you exploding yet.”

  Leo lifted his head and looked back, spotting the playful smile on Jesse’s face. “You are sooo getting fucked.”

  “I hope so, Sir.”

  “And I don’t want you coming yet, either. Next time you come, I want it with your cock inside my ass.”

  Jesse pouted. “Aww, but Sir, I can get it up a third time for you.”

  Leo licked his lips. “Or I can order you not to come at all until tomorrow.”

  “I’ll wait, Sir,” Jesse quickly said.

  The quick capitulation made Leo’s cock throb. “Good boy.”

  Jesse grinned. “See? You’re a natural.”

  Once Jesse had comfortably worked three fingers into Leo—and with Leo asking him to wait a couple of times so he could breathe his way through not exploding—Jesse grabbed the butt plug and started working it into him.

  “If you have to use more than two gentle fingers of pressure to get it in, don’t force it,” Jesse said. “It shouldn’t take more than that.” He slowly fucked the toy into Leo’s ass, this time not using a hand on his cock, knowing Leo was too close to the edge for that.

  It felt…amazing. Leo gasped a little as it slid all the way in past its widest point and then settled home. He remained on his hands and knees for a moment, head down, trying to get used to it. It was pressing against his prostate and he wasn’t sure he could move without coming.

  “You okay?” Jesse asked.

  “Yeah, just…give me a minute.”

  He heard Jesse strip off the glove. Then the man’s hands stroked his back, his ass, his legs. He knelt between Leo’s legs and folded himself over the man, much as he’d done to Jesse after their scene. Jesse’s hard cock pressed against Leo’s ass and he couldn’t wait to feel the man’s cock inside him.

  “Just because you’re my Sir,” Jesse said, “doesn’t mean I can’t make you feel good, too.” He nibbled and kissed his way down Leo’s spine. “Serving my Sir means taking care of all of my Sir’s needs.”

  He raked his nails down Leo’s arms, up again, down his back, his thighs, up to his ass, where he grabbed Leo’s hips and ground himself against him. “It also means if my Sir needs a good fucking, I give it to him. Because I’m a good boy.”

  Leo lifted his head and looked over his shoulder. It felt like he’d been dropped right into his best sexual fantasies. “Where’s your cuffs and collar?”

  “In my bag.”

  “Go get them. Do you have snap clips?”

  “Yes, Sir.”

  “A leash?”

  “Yes, Sir.”

  “Bring them. Do not put them on yourself.”

  Like a shot, Jesse was out of bed and bolting from the room. He returned less than a minute later with the items in his hands.

  Leo carefully got out of bed, mindful of the butt plug in his ass. Dammit, it felt fucking good.

  He snapped his fingers and pointed at the floor in front of him. Jesse’s knees folded and he dropped like a rock.

  Leo took the cuffs, collar, leash, and snap clips from him. He put everything except the collar on the bed. The collar he fastened around Jesse’s neck, remembering which hole to use.

  I’ll need to get him a collar of my own.

  That thought also made his cock throb.

  He snapped the leash to Jesse’s collar and dropped it, putting his foot on the other end. “Hands,” he said.

  Jesse held up his hands and Leo got the cuffs fastened around him. “Behind your back.

  He did, and Leo used a snap clip to connect them. Sure, if he had to, Jesse could likely undo the clip himself.

  It was the symbolism more than anything.

  Leo grabbed the leash and gently tugged. “Up.”

  Jesse rose, the glaze in his eyes back with a passion. Using the leash, Leo took several turns of it around his hand and pulled Jesse in to him. He kissed him, sucking on Jesse’s lower lip, fucking him with his tongue. Between them, both their cocks were hard and rubbing against each other.

  “I mean it,” Leo said. “I don’t screw around. No lying, no cheating. If this isn’t working out for you, just tell me, and I’ll do the same.”

  “Yes, Sir.”

  He bent Jesse facedown over the bed and fastened the ankle cuffs around him. Nudging Jesse’s feet wide apart, Leo held onto his wrist cuffs and ground himself against Jesse’s ass, using the cuffs to hold him in place, the leash taut in his other hand.

  “You want me to fuck you like this, boy?” Leo asked as deep, pent-up emotions welled from within him.

  Unleashed.

  Finally free.

  “Yes, Sir!” Jesse gasped.

  He knew Jesse’s cock was trapped against the bed and the friction had to be getting him close to coming.

  Leo stepped to the side and transferred the leash into the same hand holding Jesse’s wrist cuffs. Then he started barehanded spanking Jesse, from side to side, hard, now that he knew what Jesse could take and what he wanted.

  Jesse moaned, flexing his hips, arching his back to meet each swat of his hand.

  He reached between Jesse’s legs and gently fondled his sac. “Who owns this?” Leo asked.

  “You do, Sir!”

  He stroked Jesse’s cock. “And who owns this cock?”

  “You do, Sir!”

  Leo smacked Jesse’s ass. “Who owns this?”

  “You, Sir!”

  He let go of the leash and Jesse’s wrists and dropped to his knees between Jesse’s legs. Shoving them even farther apart and keeping his hands wrapped around Jesse’s thighs, Leo tongued Jesse’s balls, his cock, teasing him and making him moan into the mattress.

  “New rule. You don’t come alone without permission. You want to masturbate and we aren’t together, you have to wait until you can get me on the phone and I’ll give you permission to do it while I’m listening to you. Understand?”

  “Yes, Sir!”

  Power surged through Leo. This…this was the kind of thing he’d longed for, the kind of control, the willingly given authority he’d always yearned for with his partner.

  The kind of power he knew he couldn’t take from Eva. Yes, she was sexually submissive in bed, but it was…different. He couldn’t have shown her the raw, hungry edge like he could now with Jesse. It would have overwhelmed and destroyed her.

  “Up on the bed.”

  Jesse managed to scramble up onto it, on his knees, shoulders against the mattress. Yes, some day—soon—Leo wanted to fuck him just like that.

  Tonight, however, he wanted to be face-to-face with the man when he fucked him.

  He unclipped Jesse’s wrist cuffs. “Take your butt plug out and put a condom on me. And lube us both.”

  Jesse did, while Leo knelt on the end of the bed, waiting.

  He felt Jesse’s hands trembling as he rolled the condom onto Leo’s shaft, all the way down. Then he lubed his ass, and slathered lube all over Leo’s sheathed cock.

  Jesse wiped his hands off and looked to him.

  Leo grabbed the leash again, pulling him in, kissing him hard as he pushed him back and onto the bed. He kept a firm grip on the leash as he sat up and shoved Jesse’s legs up and back, until his thighs touched his chest.

  With his other hand, he lined up the head of his cock with Jesse’s ass. “Tell me what you want,” he hoarsely ordered.

  “Please, Sir,” Jesse begged. “Please, fuck my ass.”

  Leo slowly pressed forward, afraid of hurting him, constantly watching him as he eased his cock inside.

  It felt…amazing
. Slowly, achingly slow, especially considering the butt plug in his own ass, he worked his cock inside Jesse’s tight channel, his gaze locked on Jesse’s brown eyes. Wide, gorgeously glazed brown eyes, mocha eyes, amber flecks and greenish hues around the outer edges, eyes he wanted to live for, a look he wanted to draw from the man for the rest of their lives.

  Once he was all the way inside Jesse, Leo pulled the man’s ankles over his shoulders and leaned in close. “I might not last long, but don’t you dare come yet,” he ordered.

  “Yes, Sir.”

  “Tell me how to fuck you.”

  “I want it hard, Sir. You own it, so damn well fuck it like you own it. Pound your cock into me.”

  “I don’t want to hurt—”

  “You won’t, or I’ll stop you if you do. So do it.”

  Leo braced himself against the bed, the leash still taut, and took one long, slow stroke out, until just the head of his cock remained inside Jesse.

  “Please, Sir!” Jesse begged. “It’s been a damn long time.”

  “Me, too.” He slammed home, carefully watching Jesse’s face but only seeing pleasure there, no pain. Thus reassured, he did start fucking him. Hard, fast, pounding, the kind of fuck he never could have given Eva for fear of hurting her.

  The way he’d always wanted to fuck her.

  And Jesse begged for more. “Harder!”

  Leo obliged, struggling to hold it back his climax as long as he could, but it just felt too fucking good. Between the way Jesse’s ass tightly fisted his cock, and the way his balls slapped against Jesse’s ass with each stroke, and the feel of the butt plug rubbing inside him, he couldn’t hold it.

  He took several long, hard, deep strokes as his balls erupted and filled the condom, until he finally fell still, breathing heavy, beads of sweat dripping from his forehead onto Jesse’s chest.

  All the while, Jesse had held onto Leo’s arms, fingers digging in, and now he stroked Leo, touching him everywhere.

  He leaned in and kissed Jesse, long, sweetly, before resting his forehead against Jesse’s for a moment. “That was fucking amazing. Thank you.”

  Jesse grabbed him by the head and kissed him, fingers tangled in his hair, and Leo didn’t try to get away. It felt good to have a partner who wanted to get physical, who wanted it rough and tumble.

  “Don’t ever hold back with me, Sir,” Jesse said. “I promise I’ll tell you if something’s the bad kind of pain. But until you do something to violate my trust, I’m going to trust you that you won’t harm me. I have faith in you.”

  “You don’t really know me. How can you say that?”

  Jesse smiled. “Because you’ve made yourself vulnerable to me, too.”

  * * * *

  To be honest, other than the not being allowed to come part—which Jesse was used to and didn’t mind—that had been the best fucking of his life.

  Ever.

  Leo carefully untangled himself from Jesse and went to clean up in the bathroom, including removing his butt plug.

  When Leo returned, he unsnapped the leash from Jesse’s collar but had him keep everything else on.

  “How do you want me?” Leo asked.

  Jesse grinned. “Any way I can get you, but on your back this time.”

  He shoved another towel under Leo and knelt between his legs, gently palming the man’s sac. “Please get those test results done quick,” Jesse said. “You have no idea how badly I want to swallow a load of your cum.”

  He pushed Leo’s legs up and back and had him hold them out of the way. Then he rolled on a condom and lubed himself, drizzling more along the seam of Leo’s ass, before he pressed the head of his cock against him.

  Looking up into Leo’s eyes, he felt himself falling. Right over the damn edge, into the abyss.

  Love.

  He couldn’t deny it.

  Stupid?

  Yes. Too damn soon?

  Absolutely.

  But he knew with certainty if they made it through the next couple of weeks that this was forever. He felt it. He felt it and knew it, because he’d never felt like this before with anyone.

  Ever.

  Jesse nodded at him, and Leo nodded back.

  Slowly, carefully, Jesse took his time and gently pressed forward, making tiny progress with each stroke, watching as Leo’s lower lip caught under his teeth while his cock slowly inflated once again.

  Jesse grinned, spit in his palm, and skillfully stroked Leo’s cock with his hand.

  Leo moaned. “Fuck, that’s…fuck.”

  “Perfect, right?”

  Leo nodded. “Perfect.”

  * * * *

  It felt perfect. Absolutely.

  Jesse leaned forward and braced his hands against the bed, never breaking eye contact with Leo as he slowly started fucking him.

  It was so different, and yet at the same time felt so right, having this man fucking him. He reached down and grabbed Jesse’s ass, urging him faster, harder.

  “May I please come, Sir?” Jesse gasped.

  “Yes,” Leo said, barely able to speak. He used one hand to reach between them, grab his own cock, and start stroking it as Jesse fucked him, harder, faster.

  He heard Jesse’s gasp and felt the man’s cock stiffen and throb inside his ass, and that was all it took. Leo’s cock exploded in his hand, coating him and Jesse and Leo’s hand with his cum.

  Jesse fell still, then started laughing.

  “What’s so funny?”

  He kissed Leo, apparently not caring that he was smearing it around even more and making a bigger mess. “Get that test done quick, Sir. I like licking up messes. That should be one of my jobs.”

  He grinned. “Absolutely.”

  They grabbed a quick shower before returning to bed and collapsing there, limbs entwined, Jesse comfortably snuggled against Leo.

  Even in this way, Leo couldn’t help but think how perfectly the man fit in his arms.

  He didn’t want to keep making comparisons to Eva, but he couldn’t help it. The last twelve years had been spent married to her, sleeping with her. It was his last and only real comparison.

  But there was no comparison now, not really.

  Had any doubts remained in Leo’s soul about the path his life needed to take, Jesse had completely, utterly erased every last one of them.

  Even if things didn’t work out between them in the long run, he knew he couldn’t go back. Happiness did not lay with Eva. His happiness lay elsewhere, maybe even right here.

  Only time would tell.

  Chapter Fifteen

  Leo couldn’t remember the last time he’d slept so well or deeply. At one point in the night, he awoke lying on his side, facing away from Jesse, with Jesse pressed against his back, his arm draped around Leo.

  Leo turned toward him, wrapped his arms around him, and immediately drifted back to sleep even as Jesse nestled his head in the crook of Leo’s arm.

  When Leo awoke on Sunday morning, he looked down to find Jesse still nestled there against him, eyes open and staring up at him.

  “Hey,” Leo said, his voice still thick with sleep.

  Jesse grinned. “Good morning, Sir.”

  As if on command, Leo’s cock hardened like granite. Yes, he frequently had morning woodies, although at forty-two they weren’t usually as hard and aching and immediate as this one was.

  He rolled Jesse onto his back, straddling him, his body stretched over him and pinning him to the bed.

  And Leo was pleased to see Jesse’s cock appeared wide awake as well.

  A strip of condoms and tube of lube had ended up on one of the night tables. He grabbed them, rolling a condom onto Jesse’s shaft and slathering it with lube. Jesse watched him, eyes wide, softly moaning and arching his back in response to Leo’s touch.

  Leo rose up, slathering himself as best he could with lube. Yes, the sheets would be a mess, but hell, he’d help Jesse do laundry later.

  Grabbing the base of Jesse’s cock, Leo lined the head up with
his ass and slowly impaled himself, watching Jesse’s face, loving the way his breath quickened.

  Once Leo had him embedded all the way inside his ass, he closed his eyes and took a deep breath of his own. He felt like he’d explode if he touched himself, yet that was exactly what he wanted, Jesse’s hand around his shaft, stroking him while he fucked the man’s cock.

  Finally, he opened his eyes again and stared down at Jesse. Honey, maybe, instead of amber in this light, the green flecks around the outer edges looking more like hazel, emphasizing his dark mocha-brown irises.

  He grabbed Jesse’s hands, lacing fingers with him, pinning his hands to the bed as he braced himself and slowly fucked him. With his lips inches over Jesse’s, he said, “Good morning, boy. Don’t you dare come yet.”

  Jesse whimpered. “Yes, Sir.”

  And there it was, the glazed look. Subspace. Yes, he could tell now. He could see it, and it turned Leo’s crank, wound him tight. He wanted to keep Jesse down there, deep in that beautifully blissful place.

  He loved that he could do that to him this soon, without beating him to get him there.

  “Normally,” Leo said, “I want at least one cup of coffee in me before I even attempt to talk to people. You have an effect on me.”

  “You have an effect on me, too, Sir.”

  Leo crushed his lips onto Jesse’s, his tongue fucking him in time with Jesse’s cock in his ass. Jesse scooted his feet up the bed, bending his knees for traction and helped, slamming his cock up into Leo.

  Finally, Leo sat up, put one of Jesse’s hands on his cock, and said, “Get me off. Then you can come, boy.”

  Thick pre-cum already dripped from his head, forming a sticky puddle between them. Jesse slicked Leo’s juices over the head of his cock, down the shaft, his gaze never leaving Leo’s as he stroked.

  Leo closed a hand over Jesse’s and started fucking his cock into Jesse’s fist, matching the tempo of bouncing up and down on Jesse’s shaft. Fuck, he wanted to do this all day with the guy, take turns fucking each other until they couldn’t get it up again and collapsed in an exhausted heap.