Pinch Me [Suncoast Society] (Siren Publishing Sensations) Read online

  That was quickly dashed when her doctor informed him her memory hadn’t returned.

  Rob found her sitting up in bed, watching cable news with the deputy and the barely eaten remnants of her lunch still sitting on her bed tray. The deputy nodded to him and left to sit in the hall, closing the door behind him.

  “Hi, Laura.”

  She didn’t look away from the TV, where she stared at it, frowning over a commercial for a local landscaping firm out of Venice. “Hi.” The engagement ring sat on the bedside table next to her.

  Rob tried not to show his pain. The last thing Laura needed now was to deal with his emotions. He wanted her to focus on getting her memory back.

  He pulled a chair up next to her bed and showed her the albums. “I brought some stuff for us to look at. The doctors said maybe it would help.”

  Then she pulled her attention from the TV. “Can we talk first?”

  “Sure.”

  “How did we meet?”

  He paused, not sure how to handle this hot potato. “Through mutual friends,” he said, their usual answer to someone vanilla who asked that same question.

  He thought she might ask him for more details, but then she started asking about other things and the questions came one right after another.

  Where she was from? Florida. Where was her family? Her parents were dead, killed in a car accident a little over a year earlier, and he hadn’t been able to contact her brother, Bill, in Montana. What did she do for a living? She owned a dive shop and charter business, and wrote freelance articles for fishing and scuba diving magazines and websites.

  Why, who, what, where—it nearly wore him out until he put it into perspective that she was, essentially, hearing these things for the first time.

  Laura finally paused and lay back in bed, closing her eyes.

  “I also brought you some clothes. Your clothes,” he said. “I thought it might make you a little more comfortable.” He opened the duffle bag for her. She reached in and sorted through them, finally selecting a T-shirt and pair of sweat pants.

  When he offered her his arm to help her sit up she hesitated at first, then tentatively let him assist her out of bed. He helped her to the bathroom, standing back while she locked the door behind her. She obviously wasn’t comfortable having him so close.

  He wasn’t used to this from her, someone he’d shared his life and bed with for two years.

  Someone who, until a few days ago, had called him Sir.

  Someone who had trusted him with her life and safety when they played very edgy scenes.

  Someone who had never hesitated—before—to turn herself over to him completely and without reservation.

  Once again he had to force himself to remember he was a stranger to her.

  She took several minutes to change and when she emerged, he helped her back to bed. The Laura he knew was physically there, but the tangible emotional gulf felt miles deep and infinitely wide.

  Laura reached for the photo albums. The first were from her childhood. Rob thought maybe the older memories would return faster, based on what the doctors had told him.

  He watched while she slowly flipped through the pages, occasionally asking him for a name or place. Some he knew, some he didn’t. Once they got to the albums with pictures of them as a couple, he told her the stories, trying to relive them for her as best he could. He also had a ton of pictures on his phone, but until he could sanitize the photo album and remove the ones of her in bondage, or her proudly sticking her ass out so he could take pictures of her bruises, he’d hold off showing them to her.

  They were halfway through one album when she smiled at a picture of them on a fishing boat. Rob held a large amberjack. Laura used two hands to hoist an impressive grouper.

  “Do you remember that day?” he asked.

  Laura closed her eyes, deep in concentration. “Something about a ledge.”

  Rob didn’t give her any information, made her search for it.

  “Maybe a…croaker?” She looked at him, her brow furrowed. He nodded.

  Her finger traced the picture. “We were scuba diving?”

  “Yes.”

  “I know how to do that?”

  He forced the smile. “You’re an instructor.”

  “Oh, yeah. You said that, didn’t you. Sorry.”

  “No, it’s okay. I know you’re overwhelmed.”

  That earned him a sad smile. “That’s an understatement.”

  She stared at the photo for a few more minutes without speaking. The obvious intensity of her effort was mind boggling. “Something about a lobster.” After several more minutes she finally shook her head. “That’s all I remember.”

  He tried to hide his disappointment. She’d been so close to getting it. “We were spearfishing in the Gulf. You shot the grouper, and he went under a ledge, making the loud croaking noise they do when they’re wounded or scared. While you were digging it out, I shot that amberjack and had my hands full. You yelled into your regulator and I turned and you had a hold of the grouper, but a large lobster had backed out of the hole and you didn’t have any hands to grab it.”

  “Was that good?”

  He laughed. “Well, it would have been if we could have got it. Lobsters aren’t common this far north in the Gulf. It was lobster season, and we had lobster stamps on our fishing licenses. But he got away, baby girl.”

  She flinched and looked at him with a suspicious glare.

  “What’s wrong?”

  “Baby girl?”

  That was one of his pet names for her, had been for years. She was his “baby girl,” even though they didn’t do age play, and he could call her that regardless of who was around. In front of vanillas, she’d teasingly call him Fireman instead of Sir. Or Hose Jockey, depending on her mood and whether she was trying to get him into bed. She had a hellacious sense of humor.

  But alone, she always called him Sir.

  “That doesn’t bring anything back?” he softly asked, hoping his voice didn’t tremble. He tried to remember Singh’s warning, that he had to stay strong for her.

  “Not really.” She wrinkled her nose again. “You really called me that? I liked it?”

  “Yeah.” He hoped he could choke out the statement without breaking down. “If you don’t feel comfortable with that now, I won’t.”

  She slowly nodded. “Thanks.” She returned her attention to the album.

  He felt another piece of his tattered soul ripped from him. But if she didn’t want him calling her that now, he wouldn’t.

  No matter how much it hurt.

  * * * *

  Laura finally shook her head as she stared at the picture again. She was going to ask him more questions when someone knocked on her door.

  The deputy entered. “You have another visitor.” An older woman with short blonde hair walked in. It was obvious she made an effort not to react to Laura’s battered face.

  “Hi, honey. How are you feeling?”

  “Laura,” Rob said, “this is Carol Langhbine. She’s an old friend of yours. She was in some of the pictures I showed you.”

  Laura looked at her, feeling something as new memories swirled in the darkness without fully surfacing, but she wasn’t sure if they were true memories, or just things she’d seen in the pictures. “Hi. Nice to meet you.”

  * * * *

  Rob somehow managed not to swear when Carol entered the room. He’d specifically told her and Steve both not to come to the hospital yet.

  Then he spied the tears in Carol’s eyes.

  “Excuse us for just a minute, Laura. I need to talk to Carol outside.” He hustled her out of the room and into the hallway.

  Carol’s voice barely rose above a tearful whisper. “Oh my god, Rob. She looks horrible!”

  Rob had kept both her and their friend Steve away from the hospital while Laura was unconscious. There was nothing they could do for her, and he knew Laura—the old Laura—wouldn’t want them seeing her like that.

 
; “That’s why I warned you not to visit until I told you to.” He struggled to contain his irritation. He’d wanted a chance to sit down with Carol and Steve and fully brief them before having them come in.

  Tony and Shayla were different. He knew he could count on them to maintain a strong façade in front of Laura.

  And especially to not say anything about their BDSM activities.

  Carol, however, was practically family, even though she had no clue about the private aspects of their relationship.

  “She doesn’t remember anything.”

  Carol looked at him. “Nothing?”

  Rob shook his head. “Everything’s a blank. Even me.”

  “Oh my god.” She dug a tissue out of her purse and tried to clean herself up. “What can I do?”

  “Just put on a smile and come in there with me and talk to her. She needs information and support right now.” He glanced at the clock over the nurses’ station. “And let’s keep the visit short so you don’t overwhelm her.”

  He wanted Carol out of there well before Tony and Shayla arrived so he didn’t have to deal with Carol’s hurt feelings about him inviting others to see Laura before her.

  Carol sniffled and nodded. “Okay.”

  He waited while she went to the bathroom and washed her face. They returned to Laura’s room and Rob pulled a chair next to the other side of the bed.

  Carol had been best friends with Laura’s mother since Laura was five. They returned to the old family photo albums, where Carol was able to fill in names and places Rob couldn’t.

  Eventually, Laura asked, “Who would want to do this to me? Who had a motive?”

  Rob and Carol looked at each other across the bed. Carol found her voice first, something for which Rob felt extremely thankful.

  “We don’t know, honey. The police are working on it.”

  “I just keep thinking I must have been some sort of horrible person for something like this to happen to me…”

  That’s when Laura’s reserve melted and her tears flowed. Rob tentatively put an arm around her, and when she leaned against him, he slipped the other around her and gently held her.

  “Laura, whoever did this was a monster. You’re not to blame.”

  That proved no consolation. She cried long enough for him to consider ringing the nurse for a sedative. When she finally calmed down he handed her a tissue and Carol brought her a cup of water.

  He snuck a glance at the time. It was later than he’d realized, after five thirty already. “Carol, they’ll be bringing her dinner soon and she needs to rest. Why don’t you let me walk you out?”

  Carol nodded, leaning in to give Laura one last hug. “I’ll come see you tomorrow.”

  He waited until he got Carol out the door and down the hall toward the elevator. “I think you’d better wait to hear from me before you visit again.”

  “What? Why?”

  He tried to soften the blow as much as possible. “Because she’s overwhelmed. You saw her. And right now, frankly, I need some alone time with her, okay?” That was partly the truth. “Please?”

  She looked sad, but nodded. “How long until we can see her again?”

  “Soon.” He hugged her. “You know how she was…is. If she had her memories she’d be holed up at home refusing to see anyone looking like that.” His Laura wasn’t vain, but she hated being around other people when she didn’t feel good.

  And she despised what she considered “pity.” There was no way in hell she would have allowed anyone but Rob and Shayla and Tony to see her that soon.

  Which was another point. He also wanted to make sure he could get their closest lifestyle friends in to see her. They’d bared more than just their bodies in front of each other in the course of play, but their souls as well. He needed Laura to spend as much time around them as possible in hopes it would jog her memories.

  Down in the parking lot, Carol lost her composure.

  “Rob, will she get her memory back?”

  “I don’t know. I sure hope so.”

  “What if she doesn’t?”

  He didn’t want to think about that. “We have to wait and see. It’s all we can do.”

  By the time he’d returned to Laura’s room they’d brought her dinner tray. She stared at it, looking disgusted.

  “What’s wrong, sweetie?”

  He hoped that endearment, at least, would be all right.

  Apparently it was because she didn’t flinch. She did, however, shake her head. “Blech.”

  That was, he happily noted, directed at the food on her plate and not him.

  He smiled. She wasn’t a picky eater, but she definitely had her preferences. “I have a little surprise for you. Some really close friends of ours are bringing dinner for us soon. Your favorite meal.”

  A skeptical eyebrow arched. The familiar gesture nearly made him cry.

  “Really?”

  “Really.”

  She replaced the cover over the plate. “Can’t be worse than this slop.”

  “Tony and Shayla know your favorites. It’s an Italian restaurant several of us eat at every week.”

  * * * *

  Laura’s stomach grumbled. “That actually sounds good. I couldn’t finish lunch. It was horrible. Bland.”

  “Did they say you can eat a normal diet?”

  She nodded. “I had oatmeal, and then eggs this morning, after I kept the broth down. It hurts to chew is all.”

  Rob gave her another sad smile. She wondered if he always looked so sad or if it was due to the circumstances. “I didn’t even think to ask if they were keeping you on a restricted diet when I talked to Tony earlier.”

  “Who are they?” she asked. “The people coming to visit.” The older woman, Carol, she jostled a few memories, but they felt like old ones. Very faded, disjointed, like she was a kid when they happened.

  At least, she hoped they were true memories and not just wishful thinking on her part as they’d gone through photos together.

  “Tony and Shayla Daniels.”

  “How did I meet them?”

  “You’ve known them for several years. They’re the friends who introduced us. You and Shayla are extremely close. Best friends.”

  She felt like maybe he was holding something back but it didn’t feel bad, or like he was lying.

  She wasn’t sure how she knew that, or if it was simply more mental gymnastics courtesy of her battered brain.

  She opted to let it go for now.

  “Why haven’t more people come to see me?” She feared the answer.

  “Oh, sweetie. I’ve told people to stay away for now. You were in the ICU, and now…” He didn’t finish.

  He didn’t have to.

  “Because I can’t remember them anyway,” she quietly said.

  He let out a sigh as he nodded. “I didn’t want you to get overwhelmed. And…” She forced herself not to flinch away from him as he reached out and gently stroked her cheek with the back of his fingers. “I knew you wouldn’t want a lot of people seeing you like this.”

  “You’re seeing me like this.” She felt an instinctive urge to tip her face toward his hand, to nuzzle against it.

  Familiar.

  She closed her eyes and hoped more came to her but it didn’t.

  For now, she’d settle for that little beacon of goodness in the middle of the inky sea that still comprised most of her memories.

  “That’s because I love you,” he said. “You’re my life. Good luck trying to keep me from your side.”

  “What about the couple bringing dinner? Would I want them seeing me like this?”

  “They’re like family to us. You wouldn’t care what condition they saw you in.”

  The door opened again and the deputy popped his head in. “Rob, there’s a couple here to see Laura.”

  “Send them in.” He stood to greet them. Laura clutched at the sheet and waited for them to get all the way in.

  They did feel familiar.

  M
ore importantly, like Carol earlier, they felt safe.

  Tony Daniels stood a little taller than Rob and had green eyes, dark brown hair, and a friendly smile surrounded by a neatly trimmed moustache and goatee. Even though he had his hands full of take-out bags, he accepted an awkward one-armed hug from Rob. His wife, Shayla, had hazel eyes and wore her brown hair down past her shoulders.

  She also noticed Shayla wore a gold necklace with a heart-shaped charm on it. Something about the look of it pulled a wistful pang from deep in Laura’s heart. Her hand flew to her throat again, fingers helplessly fluttering against the empty real estate there.

  I need to remember to ask Rob about that.

  Tony put the bags down on the bed tray. “We come bearing food,” he joked.

  “Thank you,” Laura said. “Rob told me you were bringing dinner.”

  Shayla hesitantly walked around the bed to the other side. She looked like she was on the verge of tears. “May I hug you?” she softly asked Laura.

  Laura pulled back the sheet and turned to sit on the edge of the bed. Shayla tentatively wrapped her arms around her as Laura did the same.

  She heard Shayla sniffle. “I love you so much, sister,” she whispered in her ear. “I don’t know what I would have done if I’d lost you.”

  A wave of emotion Laura couldn’t process swept through her. She let out a sob of her own as she tightly clutched Shayla and they cried together.

  * * * *

  Alarmed, Rob started toward the women. Tony stepped in his path and gave a terse shake of his head. He motioned for Rob to follow him out into the hall.

  When the door closed behind them, Rob whispered, “Why are we out here?”

  “Give them a couple of minutes alone together,” he said, peeking through a crack in the blinds. “It’ll do them both some good. Even if it doesn’t jostle Laura’s memory, she’s obviously reacting to Shay.” He eyed Rob. “And Shayla was about to go crazy with grief, so she needs to let it out.”

  Rob tried to look through the same space in the blinds as the women remained motionless, obviously still crying.